Cloud

 Cloud passed away quietly October 5, 2012.

Stop This Train! I Want Off!

How can life be so great and so terrible at the same time.

Today I see life as it is at this moment and that this moment will never return. How sad to think about.

I know what happens. My children are with me for a little while. Little by little the innocent giggles of childhood turn into complex confused emotional cries of teenagers. It will be hard to sit by and watch as my teenage children start to make the early decisions that will help shape the rest of their lives. Oh! What did I get myself into? This parenting thing!

A Poem I Found

When Vaun got off his mission he brought with him a binder full of inspirational stories, poems and quotes. Here is one that I like:

I Can't Do Everything

I can't do everything
I know because I've tried.
Tried to tell myself I could,
and then found out I lied.

I believed with all my heart
that I should do it all.
But I can't do everything.
And when I try I fall.

I can't please everyone.
I know because I've tried.
I needed the love so much.
Sometimes I've compromised.

But the more I live and learn.
The more I clearly see.
That I can't please anyone
until I'm pleased with me.

So here I am asking with all my heart
for the feeling I have been dreaming of.
Just fill the empty feeling that keeps us apart
and help me find myself in Your love.

Because I can't do anything
without some help from above.
And I can't please anyone
until I know I'm loved.

And I believe I'm loved

-Shannon Denton

Thankfully I have lived enough to learn most of these lessons myself. Except I keep forgetting from time to time that I can't do life by myself, and I don't like the reminders that come to remind me.